At Dads, on the sofa watching the new James bond film. Unfortunately I haven’t paid much attention to the opening and I'm a little lost. Though, James bond films never really keep me to gripped. Golden Eye is about the only one I've managed to watch properly!
Haven't felt too stable since about last night ... I think its girlfriend stuff. I always worry about nothing! She went to London late last night as a last minute decision with some friends. I kind of freaked out a bit. Not at her, but my head went rather crazy. I definitely have some trust issues. And it doesn’t help that the past couple of weeks have been a bit rocky while I've been on work experience. I've had a go about particular things, but instead of leaving it there I've carried on and on about it which has in turn made her feel a little less enthusiastic, but after all this came to light the following evening was rather more pleasant!
I just feel so cut off from everything up here. It really works me up and makes me feel worried and helpless. If anything upsetting ever happened up here (girlfriend trouble, emotional wreck type stuff) id just have to wait, and wait, and feel sick with sorrow until I returned to feel sick still, but at least id be in more comfortable and familiar surroundings!
(Really have no idea what bond is fucking up too...)
We drove around to look at a few cars today - and I've found an all black KA with matching bumpers that I LOVE i really do love it and the insurance is still fairly cheap on it as well concidering its my first year of driving! He said we'd go back again to look at it tomorrow, now he's realised that the price of the car is actually quite reasonable for its age/mileage.
We would have gone back earlier on but he's been lying on the sofa asleep all afternoon with a migraine.
Tonight I think we're just going to have a stir-fry, and I don’t know what else! Emily's going round a friend’s house with Lulu, hopefully I'll see her tomorrow. And hopefully she won’t get too drunk or whatever tonight so she's in a bit of a perky mood when I see her.
She was out until 5am this morning and didn’t sound too upbeat when I spoke to her on the phone about an hour ago... thus adding to my anxiety! She said everything was fine though. I just need to chill out. One things for sure though. When I get back from my dads tomorrow I'm buying plenty of flowers!!!
Anyway, I'm going to concentrate on the TV now and see if I can work out what this poxy secret agent is playing at! Tara!
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